Wednesday 23 September 2015

Remembering friends

Today marks the 21st anniversary of my best friend's death from non-hodgkin's lymphoma aged just 18.  I shed a few tears remembering how she suffered, but battled through with amazing courage and spirit.  It's only when you have cancer yourself do you truly appreciate what living with cancer is really like.  I stood on the sidelines and watched a teenager cruelly taken away from us when she should have been enjoying some of the best years of her life.  She wore a smile and made us laugh even when she was really sick.  I will never forget that friendship.
Cancer never goes away from you.  As I sit here thinking about what her life might have been like, I think how fortunate I am to be given another chance with mine.  This is partly why I want to make a difference.  Cancer has weakened me in many ways physically and mentally, but it has given me and new strength and direction in life.  I wear my scars proudly, a battle won.  I hope like Margaret was inspirational for me, I can inspire someone else in their dark places that cancer takes them.

My challenges to celebrate my 2 major landmarks are almost at the end.  This week I visited our local cubs and scouts to talk to them a little bit about my cancer and the charity that has helped me throughout.  They will be embarking on their sponsored swim in little over a week's time, hopefully generating a little more money for the charity, but also gaining a better understanding about how a local charity works near them.
The support I've had as be amazing throughout the last few months.  It really will have made a difference to people's lives with cancer.
Margaret I hope is looking down on me proud of what has been achieved.  She will always hold a piece of my heart.

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Wednesday 16 September 2015

4 years cancer free!

This day 4 years ago was one of many on my emotional roller coaster.  The day started off with a hymn at a school mass which I'll share with you.  Put this into perspective.  After mass I'm heading off to have my very last radiotherapy session after a grueling almost 10 months of treatment.  As you can imagine there were floods of tears!!  It gets me every time I sing or hear it. 

The greatest day in history
Death is beaten, You have rescued me
Sing it out, Jesus is alive
The empty cross, the empty grave
Life eternal, You have won the day
Shout it out, Jesus is alive
He's alive
Oh, happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh, happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed
When I stand in that place
Free at last, meeting face to face
I am yours, Jesus, You are mine
Endless joy, perfect peace
Earthly pain finally will cease
Celebrate, Jesus is alive
He's alive
Oh, happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh, happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed
Oh, what a glorious day
What a glorious way
That You have saved me
Oh, what a glorious day
What a glorious name
Oh, happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh, happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed

Songwriters
Timothy David Hughes;Ben Cantelon


Today I sit here, 4 years on, relatively fit and healthy.  I walked to and from work.  The sun came out on the way home. I then spent 3 hours at the Centre for a volunteers meeting. I have a job that is rewarding, I do a bit of voluntary work where I can which makes having had cancer worth something.  I have 2 beautiful children, wonderful family and friends, and a husband that isn't too bad either!

Today is definitely a happy day, and things have changed dramatically in my life, but I wouldn't change them.  I am forever changed. 
Then

Now